Mum's probably started in her late teens when she discovered she was adopted. From that point she had severe self esteem issues that were compounded by huge weight gains. With both mum and dad Catholics and contraception discouraged, the Forster clan increased to 7 over 10 years. Mum was unable to rear one child let alone 5 and I often felt a great responsibility, being the eldest.
My lasting memory of my mum is her various medications she took to survive. Mum died at 53 from ovarian cancer.
Dad also suffered self esteem issues early and like mum could never please his dad. Living with mum was really difficult and dad often took the brunt of her vicious verbal and sometimes physical attacks. He had a break down in his late 50's. He is now in his 80's and keeps mainly good physical health though still suffers from depression, aided by medication.
Being subjected to regular fights and living in an often volatile environment, I believe has had a lasting negative impact on my ability to be in relationships. Thankfully I am living with a wonderful person who loves me more than I love myself.
Ten years after mum died I wrote a tribute to her called 'Peace in Sleep'. It was my way of saying goodbye as I was not there on her last day. Mercifully mum had a quick decline with reduced suffering and dad was there beside her. According to dad those last weeks were a wonderful reconciliation for them.
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