Wednesday, 17 July 2013

Learning to trust and the big move

Over the last few weeks I have been pre-occupied by work demands and have spent most waking and sleeping hours thinking of what needed to be done to get through the last weeks of term.

Now its the holidays and I've switched my attention to the big move next Monday. Lea and I are excited but also aware that change brings new challenges. It will be good to have a place of our own with more room and separate bedrooms for Bianca, Caitlyn, Kate and Alice if they come to visit. There has been a lot of work with sorting mortgage, changing banks and arranging the move.

Hope all my readers are well and haven't given up on me just yet. Off to make some comments.

Here is a post from my last blog that many of you would not have seen and a song that I recorded with John seemingly an age ago now.

Getting Close

A risky business getting close to people. I know over the years I have been rather cautious about getting involved with people. Most of us will be able to recall times where we have trusted in people and they let us down. People who on the surface come across as genuine and caring that you open up to and find that they are only there for the good times. People who tell you one thing and do another.

Opening up to others of course makes you vulnerable and it is human nature to protect yourself. It makes it particularly hard when you feel you make a connection with someone who initially appeared genuine and you find is unreliable.

This blogging business has been a special way of connecting for me and although most people I am in contact with I will probably never meet in person it has been lovely to open up and share parts of my life with them. It has been lovely to communicate with others who share similar experiences and it is a positive network of support.

A special thanks to Lea
 for introducing me to blogging as I am enjoying sharing my music with others.

Also a special mention to
John who many will know writes delightful and entertaining posts. It has been a great pleasure to learn about John through following his blog and also to meet up with him in person on my recent expedition to England. In one day it felt like we had known each other forever. I look forward to catching up again in 2 years time if he doesn't change his mind in the meantime.

I want to finish with a song I wrote for Lea that expresses my love for her, how special she is to me and how much I need her in my life. As a mere male I don't always get it right but meeting and getting to know Lea has been a turning point in my life. I now can say I feel truly loved.
This recently written song is called Hold Me and was recorded with John while with him at his home in southern England. The song's lyrics are about letting someone get close to you and how much joy that can bring. It speaks of how another person's love can transform you from sadness and emptiness to joy and hope. Only by opening up to others can we be truly loved.

Hope you enjoy Hold Me! If you have heard it already have another listen as I believe it is one of my finest compositions and has been an important song for me in love's journey.


  1. hey man...hope the move goes well...and its always good to see people pop back up...ha on the rooster in the background...i like the song, bet it made her feel special...i like the recorder or flute thingy he was playing well.

  2. I wish you and Lea a lovely, smooth move into your new home. I look forward to seeing pictures as you make this house your home. Your haven from the hectic world that we live in.

    Your song to Lea brought tears to my eyes. We can 'never' tell our other halves how much they mean to us, how much we love them.


  3. Hope the move goes well. I am sure you must be pretty excited to be moving into that house as well as the girls. It is a beautiful house.


  4. I hope the best for your move. Lovely that you are going to have enough room for all the girls. :D

    :-) Marion

  5. Paul,

    Now that was a special treat! You're the first blogger I've heard sing. You have set a high bar. Hey, maybe I'll even try, sans the rooster.

    Making a move is a BIG MOVE. A lot involved. I knew I had to make our move in 2006 before I got too old. I'm so glad I did now because I'm just in the right place at this time of my life. I hope you find the same when you make your move.

    What you say about opening yourself to others makes you very vulnerable. Tell me about it. Been there, done that, but still I don't want to be one of those cynical people who hardened themselves to everyone. However, you must be careful because sometimes you will be let down. Yes, it is a risky business getting close to people.

    I hope your move goes well Paul.


  6. Good luck with your move, Paul. I'm so glad you've found such happiness and contentment. I've truly enjoyed meeting you and love having you in my cyber family. Your lovely song is truly a testament of the beautiful love you have within you and for another.

  7. I hope the move to the new home will be a smooth ride for you and Lea. A new home, a new period in your lives together. Enjoy!

  8. Well done! I was hoping we might hear the two of you together, and I don't mean the rooster!!
    Good luck with your move and I TRUST that all will go well!
    Love to Lea and your girls!

  9. Wishing you a speedy move for you and your family to your new home. It sounds like it will be just perfect for you all.

    Love the song! Thank you for sharing it with all of us.

    Blessings to you and your dear family always

  10. May your new home bring you joy and blessings.

  11. It was nice to recall your visit Paul.

  12. And yes of course I am looking forward to your next visit to my humble home next year.

  13. Oh I still love the rooster:)John has nothing to be ashamed of his tin whistle sounds wonderful. Love the song. B